For many months I have been feeling down but after this week I was able to more fully see the blessings that Heavenly Father has for me. On Tuesday I was sitting in the library and decided to check my email. As I checked my inbox I noticed that I had received an email from the BYU London Study Winter 2017 Program. I had interviewed around 3 weeks ago for the program but they told me that there was little to no chance of me getting in. I opened the email and was pleased to read the words "Congratulations!".
To my surprise I was accepted to the program. I couldn't have felt happier and was filled with the feeling of accomplishment. I felt like I had finally had a win.
After being accepted into the program I remembered this scripture in Doctrine & Covenants came to my mind.
Doctrine and Covenants 58: 3-4
3 Ye cannot behold with your natural eyes, for the present time, the design of your God concerning those things which shall come hereafter, and the glory which shall follow after much tribulation.
4 For after much tribulation come the blessings. Wherefore the day cometh that ye shall be crowned with much glory; the hour is not yet, but is nigh at hand.
Through these digital dialogs I have been able to recognize more the way the Lord works to bless me continually and how Satan works to discourage me.
Satan is able to get me down by making me feel like nothing good is going on in my life. He does this by forcing me look through my " natural eyes". These natural eyes are focused purely on the earthly and temporal highs and lows of life. Whereas, God wants me to focus on the many blessings I have. He also wants me be able to rejoice when "after much tribulations come the blessings".
After what had seem to be a rough couple of months it was so rewarding to see how my Heavenly Father has an individual plan for me. I felt a strong presence of his reassuring love this week.